Fast forward

So…

Here we are a few years later. 2 weeks and 2 years later, to be nearly exact. I am not really an 'exact' kind of person though, so this will have to do.

I have been working out for, well, exactly one week today. Thank goodness I actually got up this AM and decided to work out or I would have been, Officially NOT on the workout train, effective today.

My goal, right now, is baby steps. I am jogging:
Monday
Wednesday
Friday
Lifting weights on:
Tuesday and Thursday.

Hm, i screwed that up today. Today I lifted weights, played at the arcade with the kids and started up on this blog again.

The Beginning

*ah-hem*

"Hello?"

"Is anyone out there?"

For the past few weeks, I have been feeling pretty out of it. I am not sure what exactly has been bringing me down. I finally got the computer I was looking for, the studio I was hoping to create, and yet, deep down, I was feeling just...ick.

My daughter's birthday is on Tuesday so this weekend we had her "BFF" party with just her and her two best friends from diaper age. They decided they wanted to go to see a movie. SO, while I wanted to get started on my garden preparation, I, instead, took a car full of kids to see a movie. Not just any movie, but, apparently,life was preparing to initiate a little does of fate and introduce me to the long lost, ever forgotten Dr Seuss movie, The Lorax.

Let me pause for a moment to share a little bit of myself to you. See, well, as my blog name would lead you to believe, I am desperately trying to be a health nut. Not just the type of person who runs every daily and weights 110 lbs. (I wish), but I try to do my best at cutting out red meat. I watch the items I purchase to carry only ingredients I am familiar with and, whenever possible, 5 or less ingredients. We got rid of our microwave years ago and, honestly, I don't really even miss it, though, every once in a while I have unexplainable cravings for microwavable popcorn. I make my children their lunches everyday, make sure to come home and cook dinner. But recently I learned, apparently a little later than most, of the giant seed industry contamination that is engulfing 90% of the world. The world of genetically modified organisms. These GMOs as they are referred to, are seeds for vegetables as common as corn that are produced to grow only with pesticide treatment. VEGETABLES GROWN FROM PESTICIDES??? And, as I am learning, these corporations, Monsanto seems to be the most popular name to come out over and over (even with protests shutting down one of their plants this week), they have corrupt ties to the government. Not just the government, but the FDA. And, it appears as though these GMOs do not even have to go through testing to ensure genetically modifying foods such as corn will harm us.

I am still reeling in the recent information I have received. In doing so, I have given myself the opportunity to feel trapped, caged, as though all of my wasted efforts throughout the years, the countless attempts as being natural and organic, has gone wasted. What have I put into my children's mouths? Those who have trusted me like no other?

And I have begun to feel depressed.

But today, today my daughter requested we go to see the Lorax. And today, suddenly, out of nowhere, amidst half a dozen crumbled up napkins full of tears, I heard something from this iconic movie...something that lit the dusty ole lamp inside my head, something that spoke loud enough to be heard deep down in the darkness I had started to call home. This movie spoke to me in a way only Fate could intend. I heard it...and I am listening.

I created this blog years ago, when I first began my attempt at becoming healthy and teaching my children...and I never posted, not once. So I feel it fitting to keep the name, to remain the Procrastinator, as it took me so long to hear the message of change...

"Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not"

Dr. Seuss

And here my journey begins. My goal is to write, to learn, to share what I learn. To educate, to expand the knowledge that we have, towards health, life, existence and sustainability.

I do hope you stick around for the ride.